The Past

The main and only reason that I had when I started blogging was to document my life, a reason for me to look back in the past and see how much have changed.

Yeah... That's the thing, change. Today I played an album that has emotional connection to me. That album represented a period of my life, not just any period, but THAT period: high school. Here it is, in Swedish: http://soofsofia.bloggplatsen.se/sida-2/

I often think about my high school time. I think most Swedish people have a special place in their hearts for this period of time. It was revolutionary for us all, good or bad. For me it was... Both. But I mostly have very positive and happy moments when I think about it. Real love, real heart breaks, real parties, real drama, stuff like that. I was very, if not extremely active. Socially active. Everyday was a new adventure, a lot has to do with Kk that I hung out with after school, she would hang out with me and we'd go on different adventures and explored Stockholm on our own. Spontaneous hangouts. Then Diana also has a major role in my life, thank God she is still in my life, can't be thankful enough, she is my party buddy, the party queen, Queen D, haha. She is always up for a good time, for parties in any form. And then we have miss SaumaN, the grounded mum, hahaha! No but she is so wise, a real shoulder to lean on and talk about anything with. These people, these girls, made up most of my time in high school and we have gone through so much together.

And then there's the "extras"... Otto... Islam.. These bitches fucked me up in so many ways.

You change during this time, you find yourself along the way, or at least are on your way to find yourself. But one thing is for sure, you change. And you know that.

For me, where I stand... Looking back a half year ago, 6 months ago, I would be very secure about my life choices. It went okay, I was still interested in life and what it had to offer. But the months passed and here I stand.. 6 months later and I've turned 180. So much has happened inside my head and heart. I am more lost than I've ever been in my life. This is my kryptonite.  I've never failed in my life, it has always been straight forward, but now here I stand, fucking lost and shit and I have a huge mountain to climb, not just that, but I am also carrying fucking elephants on my shoulders. This is my biggest challenge ever, in my life. God gives his strongest soldiers his hardest challenges.. Yeah, some quote is going like that.

No but seriously...